not a candlestick maker

really really really have no idea what to say. this is a bit of a fake it til you make it situation.

i'm at starbucks. altho i feel that the homogenization of culture across these our united states is a damn shame, i appreciate the anonymity of starbucks. sure, it's nice to go "where everybody knows your name" but can we just all agree that sometimes it's nice to go where nobody knows your name? 

well, it's nice to me.

i mean, i could be anyone here. a student. a teacher. a candlestick maker. 

a WRITER.

i had enough points to get a piece of merchandise. that's 400 points, or in layman's terms "uh... over-caffeinated much??" 400 points gets you $20 off a piece of merch. i perused the selections, and there are many fine selections: insulated cups, thermos bottles, mugs, beans. so many fine selections. 

in the end, i selected a pour-over set. do i need a pour-over set? well, at least as much as i need another drink bottle or bag o' beans. which is not at all. will i use it? that remains to be seen. do i sort of regret splurging all the points - which would have been a lot of free cups of coffee - on one purchase? uh... yeah, pretty much. 

i have never collected 400 points before. over the holidays, hosting others to cups of joe and collecting bonuses along the way, i quickly amassed a mass of points. they were burning a hole in my pocket, and now i am the owner of a pour-over set.

the more i discuss it, the worse i feel about squandering my points. 

in fact, i don't want to talk about it anymore. 

i could be anyone here. could be. in fact, i am Regretful Splurger.